I went crazy at the gym today. It's like I saw my body for the first time!! Also read a great article on being single.  Looking forward to the changes to come. Song below was the last thing I heard after the intense workout! Sing it B x

I wish I was just nostalgic. I hate being nostalgic, AND not appreciating the present moment, because those moments become the past; the past I often yearn for. Nostalgia. You're no good when I'm trying to live in the moment.  I'm thinking a lot of days gone by . Friendships that used to be, sand that has to squeeze through the glass and the fact of life's natural progressions. Love that could have been. Places I could have seen......

And then I slowly start accepting that I have to live realistically for a while. Just a little while. Thanks to my parents, I've had the luxury to be a dreamer for most of my life. But now it's time to get real. Change. Work hard. Get to where I want to be. I know I'm getting there. A place where I stop living in the past, and start living in the present/ Towards where I want to be. Or rather, accepting where I am. Embracing it. Appreciating it. Understanding that now is not forever. 

I was at the gym the other day, and I saw this quote 'fear and pain make up that little voice inside your head telling you to stop what you are doing. Stop what you are doing because you are close to greatness, and you are close to change. And if you change, you wont see us anymore. So just stop'. I never thought it would stick, but everytime I feel pain when I exercise now, I remember it and I push through. 

I try to keep motivated, for this oasis of life I envision for myself. And sometimes its hard to believe in an Oasis. But I know I'm getting there. Its all about gratitude. Making gratitude part of my attitude. On that note, today I couldn't stop thinking of my relationship with other people, even close friends, and how that has changed over time. Maybe I'm still trying to find an excuse. A distraction to deter from what I am close to becoming. Whatever it was, today -  I missed what we used to be, old friend x

I stared into the light

To kill some of my pain                   

cause no senses remain                        

but an ache in my body

And regret on my mind

But I'll be fine

Cause I live and I learn

Yes I live and I learn

If you live you will learn                         

Yes I live and I learn 

Get a rhythm, when you get the blues! 

Another album I was listening to on my mini road trip. I love you Mr. Cash x

This was my first weekend in Tauranga, on my new job as a regional manager for EF. I drove the whole 2 and a bit hours , then in the last 5 mins before getting to the expo, I was stopped by a police man - charged $120 for speeding. Better than a car accident right? Throughout the trip, the two songs below were always in my mind. When I grow up, I want to be Janelle Monae x


This is a cooold war you better know what you're fighting for....
you wanna be free? being on the ground is the only way to be...
This is a cold war....do you know what you're fighting for? 

Good morning twilight....not a star in the sky....
lost without my baby, and I just don't know why.....
lonely night on peach tree....
clubs are closed....its only three.....

dreary on my mind... 

Just to make it clear from the post below....I did not get hired as a prostitute.... and I am actually happy about being employed (starting Wed). The song below is awesome, and I am also happy that No doubt is back - with a bit of Arabic beats! 
Enjoy x

On Thursday I was hired. Nothing to do with law, but hopefully a place where I can get to where I want to be. New goals, but constantly remembering that happiness is a privilege, not a right. Waiting for the unexpected to strike, but also remembering that life is unexpected. Here's to living a life less ordinary. You were chosen to be a dreamer because you have the ability to fulfill your daydreams x

This song is probably about a prostitute, but I really like this part:

They don't know you anyway 
They don't know you and they don't watch you walk away 
Just a nobody girl 
With a radar to the scene 
When the emptiness finds you 
You find all the numbers you need 
Say you follow your heart 
Well, honey you're just being lost 
Say you follow your gut 
Well, how much would it cost?