Can I wade (wait?) in your water, can I wade in your water, can I wade in your waterrr, till I catch a waaave!!  Been listening to this song so much....Calms me down!

I can feel summer coming along, and I wont be here :( Best part of NZ! Oh well...I feel good things coming this way! Enjoy some Kiwi coolness x

So Saturday the 10th of November I attended the best concert ever! Coldplay in Mt Smart stadium. Such amazing performers. I wish I was on the field though....we were seated. Oh well...still breath taking. I went with my childhood friend Nour and my good friend Areego - Nour had had a rough day. We used to sit on my window sill and watch the stars as we listned to 'parachutes' and 'a rush of blood to the head' ..... there were lots of tears. Lots of staring into the sky. Lots of love. Lots of gratitude.

This was my favourite. Well these two x

I've been a sick for the past week. I have a chest infection, but it is not too serious, and i'll be better tomorrow (fingers crossed). Anyway, in light of the elections yesterday, and having Obama for another 4 years (no comment on politics, because in the end every American president is a puppet), I woke up this morning and remembered a time when I was revolutionary. When I read my poem about the war in Iraq and protested. When I led a protest down Queen st. When I took over the chants from a protester burning flags. I found the poem I wrote about the war. I was so passionate back then. I had such a great voice. I hope that spark stays with me in Dubai. That passion for the people. I will keep in mind that school I will start. When Obama talked about Education, about opportunity - regardless of his place in the world, he spoke the truth. Education is the gateway to opportunity, and I am going to make the Middle East the pinnacle of knowledge once again. Wow. Oprah? I got a bit too inspired by Obama I think. Sounds like I'm trying to run for president. Damn he's a great speaker. It's scary how people can be duped/moved/inspired/conned by a few good words. And on that note, I shall bid you adieu x

Ps. This is a great video.  

It has been a crazy, beautiful, blessed tornado of emotions and opportunity. These past few weeks. I got the job. I am moving to Dubai next year. Life is what happens when you are busy making other plans. I just follow the direction of the universe. I am scared for my new role, but after much self doubt and fear, I am ready to succeed. I am ready to try try try. I am ready to make things happen and to live the life I have always wanted. I will be great. I will open up my own school in Iraq , 2020. I know I will. I will give war torn children the same opportunity I had. And it all starts with education. Everything happens for a reason. And I won't reason with reason. I will simply believe it. Believe in it. And move with it. Stay beautiful friends. Stay motivated. Stay alive. Don't just exist amd sit like perfect words on those lines x

This post is dedicated to my dad. My light in life. Thank you for your constant and unwavering support. Regardless of who I am, what I want to do, or what I have done. I have ticked off 17 of the 25 things I want to do on my bucket list, all because of you x

I've been traveling down this river
So many rocks pop up in my sight
I got to make some quick decisions
Should I go left or should I go right?
I pray for guidance and protection
It keeps my boat water tight
And I know if I just keep on believing
Every little thing's all gonna be alright

And when I wake up in the morning
I hope I see you in the light
And when I wake up in the morning
I hope I see you in the light
And loveliness and tenderness
And happiness and openness
And togetherness and loveliness



Home again
Home again
One day I know
I'll feel home again
Wrong again
Wrong again
One day I know
I'll feel strong again
And lift my head

Many times
I've been told
All this talk
Will make you old
So, I'll close my eyes
Won't look behind
Movin' on
Movin' on
So I'll close my eyes
Won't look behind
Movin' on

Lost again
Lost again
One day I know
Our paths will cross again
Smile again
Smile again
One Day I hope
I'll make you smile again
And I won't hide

These past few days have been a whirlwind.

I've cried tears of joy, regret, fear and sadness.

I've laughed and felt hopeful, and I've also felt so damn scared. 

I've questioned my ability to do  the job discussed. 

I've questioned my credibility.

I have not been offered anything, but If I am - will I say yes? 

And If I do - will it be the right path to take? 

Will I fail once more, and return home? Where is home? 

The brief trip to Switzerland gave me a taste of life on the road, but I just want a simple life at home. It also gave me a bigger bite of loneliness. I don't mind being alone.

I just don't want to feel lonely.

 I want children and a husband, I want to spend more time with my family.

But I also want adventures, I want to travel and I want to change the world. 

Will I be given the chance to do that? 

Will the decision be made for me? A simple 'sorry, we don't think you are right for the role'..

I don't know what I want. Every positive post below seems foreign to me now. 

I am scared.I am hopeful. I am excited. But if it is a no - then I will follow the next path.