Own your decisions. Move on. 

Leave no room for regret. No room for anger. No room for negativity. 

Someday doesn't exist. Never has and never will. 

There is no someday. There's only TODAY.

Real supermen don't leap over buildings in a single bound. They take small determined steps, consistently over time. 

It's not about finding out who you are. 
It's about CREATING who you are. 

Whether you think you can, or you think you can't ; You're right. 

Ask yourself honestly. 

Who do you want to be, and what are you willing to do to become that person? 

I was trying to motivate myself this evening....being the first of March and all. I always set the first as a benchmark for change. I am always looking for an excuse to start fresh, when really I just need to make a consistent effort. Not just start something, because that I always do - but continue.  I really need to step out of this mood. Why do I purposefully create drama just to procrastinate and distract myself from what I really need to focus on ? Ok I just answered my own question within the question...

I have a giant reaction to a bite on my back....its really bad, so I didn't have practice today. I am waiting for a friend to come over. I just realized, it's the first time I have ever lived alone......I've always been with my family...or a friend, or flatmates. When I look back on how much I've gone through in just 2 months - it's crazy. I am so harsh on myself.

Ofcoarse I always turn to music when I want to change my mood. And for some reason, I stumbled upon the song below today. I thought - Christina Aguilera? What the loch-ness? But I always remember when I was growing up and she came up with genie in a bottle, and there was a documentary she made....and I loved her. I wanted to be cool like her. Even though I did not identify with her at all - peroxide blonde and all,  she seemed like an old soul. She also seemed so unsure - going from Sugar pop, to Dirrrrty, to 50's to this chunky diva we see today. I don't know. I guess it's refreshing to see the beauty in women who struggle with themselves. In the metamorphism of truely becoming themselves. Not just the ones that look and act like Kate Middleton, or Katie holmes - always seemingly poised. The ones that have pain - and express it. 


So here's the song. And some of the lyrics. Enjoy and apply x 

When you're safe inside your room, you tend to dream

Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems

No one ever wants or bothers to explain

Of the heartache life can bring and what it means

When there's no one else, look inside yourself

Like your oldest friend, just trust the voice within

Then you'll find the strength that will guide your way

You'll learn to begin to trust the voice within

Yea

Young girl, don't hide

You'll never change if you just run away

Ooh, woh yeah

Young girl, just hold tight

Soon you're gonna see your brighter day

I know, I know. I should lay off thinking about pointless boys for a while....and also - start focusing on what truley matters in life. BUT DAMN. If this creature was infront of me - all sanity is out of the window. Ah restless mind - you only set yourself up for disappointment! Thanks Anna x

Also - now that I have snapped out f my little trance, I just want to take a moment to LOL at myself, and what I said about being a little less naive below. Well, you live and you learn right? Everything is a lesson if you want it to be. I guess Naivety goes hand in hand with hope, and at the end of the day - I am glad I am not so numb so as to have lost hope in life, love and goodness. Take care my lovelies. I have jam night tonight x

Hold on to that kite!

"Difference"
Anna Kamieńska 

Tell me what’s the difference
between hope and waiting
because my heart doesn’t know
It constantly cuts itself on the glass of waiting
It constantly gets lost in the fog of hope

Thank you my dearest Zinnia for reminding me to watch this again. 

Okay you've had your fun, you've hit a slight bump in the road - now back to focus. FOCUS on your opportunities....on your family....on YOU, and what makes you happy, not what makes you doubt yourself and holds you back! Be yourself, focus on what the universe is bringing your way (and ignore what it brought you valentines day - that was just a detour). Game face back on baby! Bye bye and thanks for the sweet sweet nothing x
(yes I do realize I have posted this before, but now it's more fitting..hehe enjoy your day/night my lovelies) x

I may have posted this before, but whatevs. Amy - you are a legend. 
Thanks for getting me through x