I closed my eyes and walked straight into the sunshine. I was blinded by unexpected light but It felt so right - everything seemed so possible. Hope seeped through my pores and I couldn't wait to live the rest of my life....

'Now don't tell me that I wont, I CAN-

Don't tell me that I'm not I AM

Don't tell me that my master plan

Ain't coming through...

Don't tell me that I wont, I WILL

Don't tell me how to think, I FEEL

Don't tell me cause I know its real,

What I can do'

Okay I want what they are having for breakfast.....enjoy x

Ok now I feel like sharing with you (hah - heres me thinking that someone reads this blog?) my top 4 favorite music videos. This is not in any particular order.....

"The air is heavy,

heavy as a truck...

need the rain to wash away our bad luck..."

The next video is just pure awesome, with a bottle full of hotness.....

I love the concept of this next video...and I used to be insanely obsessed with the song....

This last one is just stunning. Enjoy x

Friday was my farewell dinner at work....As I got to talking to everyone in more depth at the table, I found out that everyone was not what they seemed - in a good way. Its extraordinary some of the days my colleagues have lived, and continue to live. They say that some cliches are truisms, more like fact, and that night I found out that these next few certainly are. 1. You cant take life for granted, 2. everything can change in a second, and  3. never ever judge a book by its cover. In light of all that, I remember this song was playing in the back ground to our conversations as we prolonged our stay, and they tried to hint at us that its 'closing time'. Heh. I'm going to miss the WCLC x

I try to push it away, but in the back of my mind it always seems to linger. And sometimes I wonder - why am I pushing it away? I'm sure everyone who has not found love thinks about it in and out. Sometimes constantly, sometimes (depending on how busy we keep our selves) not so much.  I know for me its in those moments when I am alone and stressed that it creeps in and eats away at me the most. Actually, its also increasingly creeping in at those moments when I am surrounded by sound and laughter...And sometimes you get the triple whammy days when the hormones of a woman kick in to spice things up upstairs. Anyway, its in those moments where my thoughts drift from law school, and doing my masters, and exercising, and learning another language, and seeing more of the world - that I sink deep in thought....Will it happen to me? I ask the universe somewhere between a genuine question and prayer. I know its highly self centered,but i'm human - get over it. So I continue -will this man one day appear in my life? Love me unconditionally, and want to spend the rest of his life with me? Is this the answer to happiness? I have never really been in a relationship. At 26 I've dated one or two guys (which is a lot for this middle of the road Middle Eastern Muslim). Even though they don't take up too much of my time, after their welcome departure from my life, these guys leave me wondering 'Is this it?' Does love exist? and If it does - will it ever come into my life? Will I have a love story to share, or will I just be set up with someone, and agree out of desperation - all in the hopes of pleasing my parents, trying to somehow find a gap to place myself, in a culture and religion I don't always identify with? Yes - these thoughts occupy my time more than I would like. 

Its good to know my thoughts were in excellent company however. 

But still....I wont feel bad for the little thoughts that creep in. The little day dreams I have, where I imagine someone will love me so much - they'll dress in their best hipster attire, pick up a guitar and sing this for me. So heres Mr Nozuka fulfilling my fantasy x

Get up in the morning
and I can't keep it in
I'm falling all over myself
and I could jump out of my skin
Wanna break the door down
Just to greet the day
There is nothing that's more certain
To keep my blues away, and I say...

Keep on dreamin' , then keep on doing.....its happening. I can feel it. Its near, and its going to feel so golden baby....... x