This post is dedicated to my dad. My light in life. Thank you for your constant and unwavering support. Regardless of who I am, what I want to do, or what I have done. I have ticked off 17 of the 25 things I want to do on my bucket list, all because of you x

I've been traveling down this river
So many rocks pop up in my sight
I got to make some quick decisions
Should I go left or should I go right?
I pray for guidance and protection
It keeps my boat water tight
And I know if I just keep on believing
Every little thing's all gonna be alright

And when I wake up in the morning
I hope I see you in the light
And when I wake up in the morning
I hope I see you in the light
And loveliness and tenderness
And happiness and openness
And togetherness and loveliness



Home again
Home again
One day I know
I'll feel home again
Wrong again
Wrong again
One day I know
I'll feel strong again
And lift my head

Many times
I've been told
All this talk
Will make you old
So, I'll close my eyes
Won't look behind
Movin' on
Movin' on
So I'll close my eyes
Won't look behind
Movin' on

Lost again
Lost again
One day I know
Our paths will cross again
Smile again
Smile again
One Day I hope
I'll make you smile again
And I won't hide

These past few days have been a whirlwind.

I've cried tears of joy, regret, fear and sadness.

I've laughed and felt hopeful, and I've also felt so damn scared. 

I've questioned my ability to do  the job discussed. 

I've questioned my credibility.

I have not been offered anything, but If I am - will I say yes? 

And If I do - will it be the right path to take? 

Will I fail once more, and return home? Where is home? 

The brief trip to Switzerland gave me a taste of life on the road, but I just want a simple life at home. It also gave me a bigger bite of loneliness. I don't mind being alone.

I just don't want to feel lonely.

 I want children and a husband, I want to spend more time with my family.

But I also want adventures, I want to travel and I want to change the world. 

Will I be given the chance to do that? 

Will the decision be made for me? A simple 'sorry, we don't think you are right for the role'..

I don't know what I want. Every positive post below seems foreign to me now. 

I am scared.I am hopeful. I am excited. But if it is a no - then I will follow the next path. 

Just a few moments ago - I received my airline ticket for a job interview in Lucerne. I AM SO EXCITED ABOUT THE RANDOMNESS OF LIFE!!! I FEEL LIKE I'm on fire!! I'll keep you posted. I've got my head in the clouds, and I'm not backing down.....x

I feel like I'm floating through existence
I feel like I'm living after time
I feel like I'm forced to break the silence
Is that a crime? Is that a crime?
I feel like we're all following shadows
And shadows they don't know where to go
I feel like I'm waiting for tomorrow
While today wastes away

I got a call today, that could potentially change the course of my life. If this is the next leg of my journey/destiny, then  I trust you Allah/Universe to direct me. If it's good for me, I want it. I WANT IT. I WANT IT. I will update you all soon, once I know for sure. Right now, I am scattering my wishes across the universe. And I won't worry, about a thing. x

Rise up this mornin',

Smiled with the risin' sun,

Three little birds

Pitch by my doorstep

Singin' sweet songs

Of melodies pure and true,

Sayin', ("This is my message to you-ou-ou:")

Singin': "Don't worry 'bout a thing,

'Cause every little thing gonna be all right.

Singin': "Don't worry (don't worry) 'bout a thing,

'Cause every little thing gonna be all right!"

I hate that I always count my chickens before they hatch. I hate that! I wish I could just contain my excitment some days and stop dreaming far beyond the promises. I feel like I am bungy jumping with my thoughts but instead of feeling what I do, and keeping it to myself, I'm like bungy jumping and telling everyone how I feel, every step of the way down. I can't gt it in my head that you don't always have to fill the silence. Calm down girl! Steady does it.

Oh chariot, your golden waves

Are walking down

Upon this face.

Oh chariot, I'm singing out loud.

To guide me

Give me your strength.