I try to push it away, but in the back of my mind it always seems to linger. And sometimes I wonder - why am I pushing it away? I'm sure everyone who has not found love thinks about it in and out. Sometimes constantly, sometimes (depending on how busy we keep our selves) not so much.  I know for me its in those moments when I am alone and stressed that it creeps in and eats away at me the most. Actually, its also increasingly creeping in at those moments when I am surrounded by sound and laughter...And sometimes you get the triple whammy days when the hormones of a woman kick in to spice things up upstairs. Anyway, its in those moments where my thoughts drift from law school, and doing my masters, and exercising, and learning another language, and seeing more of the world - that I sink deep in thought....Will it happen to me? I ask the universe somewhere between a genuine question and prayer. I know its highly self centered,but i'm human - get over it. So I continue -will this man one day appear in my life? Love me unconditionally, and want to spend the rest of his life with me? Is this the answer to happiness? I have never really been in a relationship. At 26 I've dated one or two guys (which is a lot for this middle of the road Middle Eastern Muslim). Even though they don't take up too much of my time, after their welcome departure from my life, these guys leave me wondering 'Is this it?' Does love exist? and If it does - will it ever come into my life? Will I have a love story to share, or will I just be set up with someone, and agree out of desperation - all in the hopes of pleasing my parents, trying to somehow find a gap to place myself, in a culture and religion I don't always identify with? Yes - these thoughts occupy my time more than I would like. 

Its good to know my thoughts were in excellent company however. 

But still....I wont feel bad for the little thoughts that creep in. The little day dreams I have, where I imagine someone will love me so much - they'll dress in their best hipster attire, pick up a guitar and sing this for me. So heres Mr Nozuka fulfilling my fantasy x