My heart is drumming between chords of happiness and sadness, my pulse is racing with fear and excitement, and my head is trying to pace me to take it day by day. 6 more days. I am going on a trip with my parents - it might be the last one I take with them at this stage of my life. Who knows. Everything seems final and hopeful and nostalgic and irritatingly familiar at the same time. Spending new years again - single, with my parents and my dear family friend. I will relish this moment however. Because I don't know what's coming my way. Its thrilling, and crazy and exciting. It could all change. It will all change. This is it. I feel it getting closer and closer. I wish I wasn't scared of reaching my full potential. Becoming the person I always knew I wanted to be. Living the life I had imagined. It will happen. Think it to reality. I will succeed. I will find happiness.I will not take the easy way out.

I also thought alot about regret today. Is anything really a mistake if you just take it as a lesson? I am ready to play this new role. To move into the new year knowing myself a whole lot better. I'm going to miss my cat. Photos. Flicking through photos. Memories and years and moments. I am ready to be born again. Bring it on Dubai. Bring it on 2013. It's a brand new me x