This morning I woke up and felt a familiar slump. Its like I keep going to sleep at the altar of change and inspiration, and waking up in the basement of negativity. Forgetting to count my blessings. Felt crap for talking badly about others. But I stretched, prayed and did 70 sit ups. Then I said this is a new day so get on your way! It's another chance to change and become a better person. On that thought, I called my brother - haven't spoken to him and my mother for 2 weeks.. It was good to hear his voice. I said to him ''how's NZ , I miss it'. He said 'nah its lame - you're lucky you're in Dubai, Dubai is cool'. I said 'nah it sucks. I miss you'. And so he replied: " you're never happy wherever you are". My 15 year old brother just gave me the biggest insight into my life. I remembered talking to him about how depressed NZ made me, how many arguments with my parent's he'd witnessed. I remembered kissing his forehead every night before he went to sleep and tucking him in and telling him to please not talk to our parents the way I do. And he listened. God bless him. I miss him, and I'm glad I called him. 

Today was a good day. Talked to the boss and made a plan moving forward. It was a great conversation and I feel more comfortable in my position now. I feel like I shouldn't stress out so much. Take it day by day and do my best. Enjoy where I am and balance life and travel. I also read this awesome article : http://thoughtcatalog.com/2013/5-things-loving-yourself-actually-means/


So I end this again with a toast to life. A big cheers to being the master of your own destiny. Happiness come to me. I choose you. And If I ever find myself in the basement, I'm gonna turn it into a party baby. Enjoy every where you are. Going out to enjoy my Friday now x