The nature of this blog, is that I can't pull out my laptop and write at the exact moment things are happening. I wish I could - because more and more happens and I forget to post! Anyway, given that that my laptop still operates on NZ time, it also writes in the future (it's still the 18th here in Dubai).
What I wanted to write about, is my unexpected, random, Valentines day. I met a handsome man while getting my visa at the Nigerian Embassy. Shared a taxi back together for 2 hours. Then ended up on a random date. Ofcoarse, he's showing all signs of a player and I'm trying not to get hooked (mainly because I see no future for religious reasons). We went out on a very romantic date, to the palms (see pic below). I wanted to leave it at that - just a great spontaneous random night.But no. Went on another date and he keeps wanting to see me. I know what the reason is, and I am torn between my two personalities. Spontaneous and reckless, emotional and attached. I just want to live in the moment and enjoy - but I also have be prepared to also play a very dangerous game. Putting myself on the line. UGH. I am complicating things. I start getting all serious and contradictory and it's scary. I need to stop. But anyway, that valentines date - really made me think about how everything can change in a second, and also how important it is not to complicate things and live in the moment. If anything this experience will hopefully teach me a little bit about the art of flirting, and mystery. And how not say too much. I need to remove all form of attachment and just have fun with it. I am trying not to be naive, and just be myself. It's so hard for a dreamer to be realistic. Lord keep me safe!
My brain is trying so hard not to think about my upcoming trip to Nigeria. God.
Went to see Django yesterday with said boy. Hah! so much for keeping away. Anyway, this was one of my favourite songs in the film, but overall great soundtrack.
Enjoy x
What I wanted to write about, is my unexpected, random, Valentines day. I met a handsome man while getting my visa at the Nigerian Embassy. Shared a taxi back together for 2 hours. Then ended up on a random date. Ofcoarse, he's showing all signs of a player and I'm trying not to get hooked (mainly because I see no future for religious reasons). We went out on a very romantic date, to the palms (see pic below). I wanted to leave it at that - just a great spontaneous random night.But no. Went on another date and he keeps wanting to see me. I know what the reason is, and I am torn between my two personalities. Spontaneous and reckless, emotional and attached. I just want to live in the moment and enjoy - but I also have be prepared to also play a very dangerous game. Putting myself on the line. UGH. I am complicating things. I start getting all serious and contradictory and it's scary. I need to stop. But anyway, that valentines date - really made me think about how everything can change in a second, and also how important it is not to complicate things and live in the moment. If anything this experience will hopefully teach me a little bit about the art of flirting, and mystery. And how not say too much. I need to remove all form of attachment and just have fun with it. I am trying not to be naive, and just be myself. It's so hard for a dreamer to be realistic. Lord keep me safe!
My brain is trying so hard not to think about my upcoming trip to Nigeria. God.
Went to see Django yesterday with said boy. Hah! so much for keeping away. Anyway, this was one of my favourite songs in the film, but overall great soundtrack.
Enjoy x
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