Ekh. I am sorry for those of you who have been reading my little rants. I sound like such a spoilt lazy brat! How can I get to where I want to be in life, if I don't start appreciating what I have and just working with it? I felt the way I did below because I was unfocused, and I was trying my hardest to not focus on anything but work. Look for a way out. Well I want to remember today, because I had a great day. I realized I have an amazing job, and an amazing team. Shit I get to travel so much and make my own rules and be my own manager. I am country manager of sales for Nigeria,Malaysia, Morocco, and the Middle East for godsakes! Who the hell can say that at 27!? And Imagine what the hell I can do and where I can go with this role if I just apply myself. Why couldn't this be my career? If I keep jumping from job to job, and country to country - ofcoarse I'm going to never feel confident and satisfied. I am too impatient with everything. With life, with love, with everything - and I am too hard on myself. Take it easy girl. Plan. Focus. Don't be ADD. Don't discuss people, discuss ideas and dreams. Don't complain. You have all the balls in your court (heh balls). Just make sure to aim and score. I am in the perfect place to be where I want to be in life. RANT OVER.
DISCLAIMER/Justification for Rants: For those of you who read this though, I hope my rants have helped you realize that it is hard work to choose gratitude and happiness, over complaints and negativity - that's easy to do. And I hope it has helped you to realize, that the grass is not always greener for everybody. That yes, there are people out there still struggling with who they are (ME), and that it is ok to take chances, feel lonely, and have moments of regret and insanity....but the one thing I can say about myself is that I have taken every opportunity thrown at me (I just need to focus on making the most of it, instead of looking for the next high). And that has led me to live a less than ordinary life, for which I should always be grateful. Look for the positives! It's hard, but we can do it.
Eww I sound like I am trying to be a guru! You could just read me and think ' I thought I was insane, sheesh!', which is mainly why I would always like watching Jersey shore. It made me feel good to know that there were people more effed up than me in the world! Heh. Did I even make sense? I need to get a life.
Ok seriously, rant over. Here is a nice song by Wild Belle.
DISCLAIMER/Justification for Rants: For those of you who read this though, I hope my rants have helped you realize that it is hard work to choose gratitude and happiness, over complaints and negativity - that's easy to do. And I hope it has helped you to realize, that the grass is not always greener for everybody. That yes, there are people out there still struggling with who they are (ME), and that it is ok to take chances, feel lonely, and have moments of regret and insanity....but the one thing I can say about myself is that I have taken every opportunity thrown at me (I just need to focus on making the most of it, instead of looking for the next high). And that has led me to live a less than ordinary life, for which I should always be grateful. Look for the positives! It's hard, but we can do it.
Eww I sound like I am trying to be a guru! You could just read me and think ' I thought I was insane, sheesh!', which is mainly why I would always like watching Jersey shore. It made me feel good to know that there were people more effed up than me in the world! Heh. Did I even make sense? I need to get a life.
Ok seriously, rant over. Here is a nice song by Wild Belle.
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