Tuesday, 29 January 2013

Most of the time, the person that puts me down the most - is myself. I am my biggest enemy - and this needs to stop. Maybe you are crazy - but it's better than ordinary. Better than manipulative. Better than serious. Maybe you are a try hard - but whats wrong with trying hard? Whats wrong with trying? Nothing. There is nothing wrong and you just need to be.

The scene below seems pretty morbid, but it makes me feel at peace. I love it. Best ending to amovie ever.

I had always heard your entire life flashes in front of your eyes the second before you die. First of all, that one second isn't a second at all, it stretches on forever, like an ocean of time... For me, it was lying on my back at Boy Scout camp, watching falling stars... And yellow leaves, from the maple trees, that lined my street... Or my grandmother's hands, and the way her skin seemed like paper... And the first time I saw my cousin Tony's brand new Firebird... And Janie... And Janie... And... Carolyn. I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me... but it's hard to stay mad, when there's so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and it's too much, my heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst... And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it, and then it flows through me like rain and I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life... You have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm sure. But don't worry... you will someday.




1 comment:

  1. I am reading you. And I cant tell you sometimes, how surprised I get, even still, and amazed - that we always, happen to be at the same place - at the same time (even when we're really, continents, apart.)

    I love you, and I love you. Until the oceans run out of space. Missing you so much xx

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